“I got put on a new antidepressant, and I was on it for a month, and my doctor told me that it was supposed to kick in by then. And I was having really bad suicidal thoughts, so I went to the doctor’s office and I said, ‘Hey, this isn’t working.’ But my usual doctor wasn’t there. In walks this 50-year-old man. He tells me that I don’t have depression and that it’s probably teenage hormones, and then says, ‘Maybe exercise.’
“And then, two days later, I ended up in the hospital because I was going to commit. I had to talk to so many different doctors, and one walks in and asks, ‘Are you taking any medicine?’ And I said, ‘No, just Wellbutrin.’ While I was sitting there crying my eyes out because I literally wanted to fucking die, he looks me in my face and says, ‘You’re not taking acne medicine? You know you can see a doctor for that, right?'”
If you are thinking about suicide or just need to talk to someone, you can speak to someone by calling the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK (8255) or by texting HOME to 741741, the Crisis Text Line. And here are suicide helplines outside the US.