“I really, somehow, think I am a better person now.”
“I go through my closet, and there are maternity clothes, things that I bought for my eighth month and my ninth month,” she said. “So it’s just hard because he would’ve been born this week, so you look at those things, and you have these constant reminders.”
But “being Thai and being raised in a house that was very open about loss” have helped her to realize “it can be a beautiful thing.”
“It was a really transformative thing for me and, in a way, it really saved me. I don’t think that I would’ve discovered therapy, and then sobriety, and this path of feeling good about myself and feeling like a new person,” she explained.
“You think about all the people that go through it in silence, and you get really sad for them. Ours was so public, so so many people were so supportive. You really gain this incredible amount of empathy. And I really, somehow, think I am a better person now. And I just have the best support system ever.”
The cookbook author also loves the way her two young children, whom she shares with husband John Legend, talk about Jack.
“We’ll be going to the beach or something, and they’ll say, ‘Is baby Jack with us right now? Do you think he’s up in the clouds?’ It’s just so beautiful and so sweet,” she concluded.
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